Magda from Peru discusses her frustration with medical advice
I was told so many times that there isn't really anything that can be done, I was so close to giving up. To Surrender.
So. Many. Times.
I have hit my head against the wall at night… and wanted to jump out of my bedroom window. But the challenge is to move on and to keep living with that sound in your ear.
In the beginning, seven years ago, when it was still a rather quiet beeping, I didn’t fight it as much. Of course in stage one it is just a little annoyance which can be dealt with by a movie at night to fall asleep to or with earplugs when you go out. Over the years as it gotten louder with every ear infection that I had. Accepting it became harder and harder and seemed at most of the time impossible.
I ran from doctor to doctor but there was no anatomical cause, no organic failure; there was nothing that needed fixing in order to get rid of the beeping. So I started believing in alternative medicine and started spending most of my salary in alternative treatments. What haven’t I tried…? At least that is what I feel like. Also my patience and follow through on started treatment plans is rather slim, depending on the first few results and on the attitude of the person treating me.
When there was another person telling me to “JUST ACCEPT IT” – then that treatment was done for me. I mean they are probably right, if there is no physical cause then there are only two options:
Option 1: Find out what the psychological cause is and fight/treat it.
Option 2: Find a way to live with it or how to relieve it.
Those two options never seemed like real options to me. I wanted to get rid of it and nothing else… but that never happened. No matter how much money I spent or how many treatments I tried. So my new approach is to find out how to live with it, without too many restrictions.
That new approach is a little harder, it demands self-discipline and motivation – you have to work on yourself and do something constantly. I would much rather like to take whatever pill and then be done with it, but that is not how tinnitus works, or better said, how it can be dealt with!
Written by Maria-Magdalena from Peru
In order to overcome her own struggles with tinnitus, Maria runs a blog entitled The Tinnitus Life.
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